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Have been the words I’ve been telling myself for years now.
Y’all, I have so many posts that are the start of an idea but I have not gone into them and filled them all out, deep dived. I find myself silly at this point with all these empty shares that I really want to share and I will because I wrote them down, now. I’m such a Perfectionist you see and my posts need to be perfect, they can’t be rants per se, each word needs to be read and reread and written and re-written for it to be acceptable to me. And then time goes and I don’t post and 💥 I loose because I doesn’t share. no more, not now. I am working hard to not be a perfectionist and it might take my whole life and it will take a lot of work but I realize that I’m letting time slip by while I wait to be perfect because perfect is a thing that I think equals success. I thought, and I know now. Now, is my favorite word (ok one of them). It’s a good reminder for me to just let go and post what’s happening because what’s happening is awesome and I want to share it, I want to document it, I need to document it and that’s more important than posting perfectly perfect post. Now,, I have decided that firstly, I’m paying for this shit so what the fuck I should be posting every day and using this as an actual journal of my photography awesome life. And then, who is this really for? Its for me and that’s how it should be it’s a blog, it’s my blog. I am not perfect and I love that I know that now that changing and growing and learning and understanding and continuing to cycle through these creates a imperfect me and that’s exactly who I want to be. so yes! Now I’m coming out and I want the world to know i got something to show. so enough about that. Blah blah blah I am back to the blog blah blah blah hear me roar. also, and very important update for this to continue: I can blog from my phone! Yay. Thanks weebly app. ✌🏼
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I am not very good at blogging.
and that's ok I put so much pressure on myself and that needs to stop. I need to let it go. Being in a business all by myself, I knew, was going to be challenging. And in one single day, I simply cannot do it all. letting go of the perfectionism is the biggest challenge of them all. I am starting today! and everyday after this, to wake up and motivate to get something done. to allow the process to be. edit, here and there, make appointments and meetings, here and there, stay constant on this path. lol here I go rambling on I stopped posting about my 52 challenge in 2019. I did get to about 32 photoshoots. and I keep putting it off because time keeps flying and things keep happening. but, I shall finish! and it doesn't have to be perfect. no it doesn't the thing is, Gotta keep challenging myself. challenge myself to just, write! or create! and not let that perfectionism to creep in and stop the flow. here I go! Brave Little Kt. Posting, just to post. My First Artshow Showcasing My Photography What a show. Wow. Amazing. So so amazing. Major success & a great opportunity to get my photographs printed, matted, and shown to other artists, creatives, & the community. And like all great things- it flew right by! Being apart of this creative community is rewarding, exciting and also a lot of hard work. Having fun in the darkwasn't hard when I had a model like Seth with his dope ass coat (Made by yours truly)  52 Shoot Challenge Continues on a Steady StreakI was doing pretty good staying on track with doing one a week, & for my 7th photoshoot I had a plan. When Seth and I were shooting at the beginning of the year for 1/52, I picked him up at his home and there I immediately noticed he lived next to an industrial factory. I have been fascinated with industrial factories ever since I was a little girl with all of its lights; greenish and sparkling in the distance, I would call them "Emerald Cities." After my small flashback, I turned to Seth and told him I wanted to do a second shoot with him and the factories, and so we did about a month later.
~Meet Dana~(Dan-Ah)  A true beauty from Canada that spends half of her time here in Southern California because
-well Duh!- She's a real gem; a very wise, very kind soul that I got the privilege of photographing not once but twice here in Cali. This photo shoot was all about promoting her lifestyle, Arbonne, and book club! click on the links above ^ to check out and join her book club, follow her on instagram and read all about Arbonne on her site & Facebook business page!! There is no one that I know that loveschicken wings more in this city, or country, or maybe just maybe even the world, then this chickadee right here.  Read it in ink 😜Taking time for Self is like..  Appreciating the blossoming bud for what it is,
In that time and space and stage of its life and accepting it. Not looking at what it was yesterday, or what it could become once fully bloomed. Just, and simply, and only, Appreciating the now. And Loving, feeling, being completely submerged in NOW. And That, that is what taking time for yourself is like. naw mean? This winter and snowboarding seasonwas EPIC. So much SNOW OMG. For week 2 of my 52 I knew I'd be gone to the mountains and not available to set up a photo shoot. So I brought my camera with me.  Freelance photography is fun for me. It challenges me a bit. Pushes the way I perceive the world and forces me to find beauty in everyday mundane things.
1/52 I have had the pleasure to create one of the most detailed and well-thought-out coats yet in my career, and it's all thanks to Seth Goldman and Game of Thrones Season 7, Episode 6.  Daenary's Winter Coat. My inspiration.  BTS of me at the photoshoot of week 1 of 52. In the middle of PCH. Photo by: Seth Goldman, Model It's been a good crazy busy motivational year so far, & I am loving it!
This new year I've taken on a challenge to do 1 photoshoot a week. I keep referring it as "52." Lucky 52. Hopeful 52. 52 Faces. 52 adventures. 52 stories to be told through my lens. 52 blogs about the trials and tribulations I will be going through to get to those 52! It is going to push me to the limit and I am (obviously) more than thrilled about it. The year started with a BANG! A bang of (just)one unfortunate event. And it made me (re)learn some of the photography business basics such as taking deposits for photoshoots to ensure that the date and shoot are still happening. I did have my first photoshoot planned and scheduled and in my head it was happening but unfortunately the shoot had to be canceled due to lack of communication (half on my part, lesson #2) and change of traveling plans for my client. This time of year is always hard... Luckily I did have another shoot planned this same weekend. So I still got my 1st shoot in! yay! The move that changed everything.. For the BETTER!~ Ok ok, I admit. It had been one year and a few months since I moved to Culver City, in with my boyfriend of 2 years (now 3). I haven't blogged in awhile, and well, I haven't been ontop of alot of things. Since moving in, I have been put to a true life test of procrastination and setting up a daily routine.  Confessions: I tend to get too busy keeping my hands busy and not exercising my words and mind. Well~ I hope to break this habit and share more of whats happened, and what is happening. How do I stop being so busy?? Well, I don't. So I had to come up with a plan to be able to do ALL the things and still be able to express myself the way I want. Suddenly it came to me; I will dedicate my morning time of my days to drink coffee (first, of course), sit down in front of the computer and get to writing, researching, invoicing, e-mailing, scheduling, etc. If I use this dedicated time to do these important things, then I can spend the rest of my day getting my hands dirty. This is the second year where I tackled both my photography and my designing. Through these two years, I have realized that balance is extremely important to stay afloat. Balance is all about time management and therefore, I am going to do my best to manage my time, better than it has ever been. Also, this year I realized that being a custom designer does not mean making inventory. This means that I will be slowing down my vending. I will be spending more time with my photography instead. I plan on making completely different designs then what you have seen (click here-Custom Designs) & instead of vending, I will be creating an online catalog filled with photographs of models wearing the looks & that way I can share my photography & my designs best! If people want to buy the look from the catalog, they can do so. This will make sure that every design is one-of-a-kind made only for YOU! Yay! Now, some of my blog post to come are going to be from a few months ago, or even years, but hey I have a lot to say and have a lot of artist who've collaborated with me that I haven't been able to share with the world, yet. (<-Keyword) it’s all about art, love, beauty, community, passion, compassion and simply just being 100%. Thank you all for believing in me and allowing me to be that 100% Here we go!  Barb had fur and fabric laying around, patiently awaiting to be made into a thing of beauty, and so that is what I had planned to do. Other Barb, on the other hand, had a spontaneous moment in DTLA and thus we now have two!
This one's for you!
Amber is a perfect stranger that I met through e-mails. She reached out because a peer of hers (Shout-out Nina!) was rocking a shawl she purchased at the White Party where I was lucky enough to vend, and Amber loved it! (Especially the part that snaps!)
 Last week we all got together to celebrate Veterans and to give back to the David Lynch Foundation, specifically the OWW (Operation Warrior Wellness) division, which helps Veterans and others get through PTSD with transcendental meditation. My buddy Nate Messina threw the event! He wanted to use his expression of music to reach out to the community and ask for support for a purpose that is dear to his heart; instead of just playing at local coffee shops and venues of that sort. He got local artists, musicians, food and drink support and it was a real treat last Sunday spending my time with good vibes, killer acoustic music (& some funk!) and spreading the word about how life changing and freeing transcendental meditation is, especially for Vets! The evening was emotional at times, and very expressive, & I LOVED IT! Here is a clip of some of that killer music~  Ooo what fun it was to have
a red hot female Leo's presence in my home studio, Plus, to get some 1-on-1 time with my friend, & Warrior Goddess was Truly a great way to spend my Wednesday afternoon... Introducing, my sexy and sassy friend, Blair. She’s so red hot, I don’t ever bother with a last name.
I had the privilege and pleasure to photograph this stunning human. I invited Blair over to photograph her with this beautiful turquoise hand made head piece made by my friend Mackenzie Lommel’s design line “HeadPeace”.
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