Here I finally sit, after months and months and months of procrastination.

Here I am, ready to sit and do the work. Ive been going over it in my mind this entire time, almost tricking myself into thinking that it is actually done. But each day I do this, each day I don’t get what actually needs done, done. I think what it is is, I needed to readjust my eyes. I think I wasn’t seeing clearly. I was battling internally about what is good enough and what isn’t. What is worth it, and what should be deleted, goodbye forever. I put so much pressure on myself that I stopped doing the thing that I love the most. I simply couldn’t get myself to sit down. I would do absolutely anything and everything else that I could think of. It is hysterical all the things ive done instead of my work. Alas, here I am. I am ready to admit defeat. I am ready to adult up. I am ready to level up. And in order to level up, I need to get through this next process…. The process of going back in time about 5 years and decide what is worth keeping and what is not worth it, and then do something about it… which is what? I think I will do both, my webpage and Facebook. I’ve been battling with where to put photos too… and I think what matters over time and in the end is that the photos were shared. Period. So the people have them that are in them. The rest is history. So going back to my life, and my lifes work of photography and being a photographer… I was torn trying to divide the two and what I come to realize is , no matter what, as an artist using the medium of a camera and photographs, I am delusional to think otherwise that I could and should separate the two. That realization came to me recently and I admit now that I, me, myself, has been in the way of myself ! And I am going to work on not getting in the way of that by admitting it and by swallowing pride and just doing the work. No more waiting. I will also be much faster with clients as well as not get so up tight about my freelance photography. I am also going to get the shop going and the blog… blog for sharing all my photography both life and work, and shop for adding my favorites both old and new! Everything else is extra like instagram and facebook. Like fame and fortune. Because I just need to not be so bottled up with back burner and continue to live in the moments and say yes and just shoot and not live so far in the past like 5 years. It is because the pandemic got me into a weird place on not wanting to share things as much, and so I took everything personally and now I realize, I cant live like that anymore and the way I was doing things, in 2014-2020; I loved that flow. I will get back to it, and better than before because I am clear minded and more organized and not so wanting to waste time and opportunities anymore. I am getting better and better. I sat down, finally… didn’t I. <3